Love Someone Like A Precious Diamond That Could Not Be Found Anywhere & Its Priceless

2011-10-08T05:35:00.002+08:00

2011-09-09T18:49:00.008+08:00

Your eyes hide pain and sorrow. Maybe you keep things to yourself, to pervent worry or concern from your friends and family. Your tears are only seen by you and you plan to keep it that way. The only place you cry is when you are alone. Maybe you feel lost or alone. If you do feel lost or alone, you are not the only one who feels that way. I feel like that everyday, because I am so misunderstood. People may not be understanding you right now, because you may not have them the complete story or you are talking to the wrong people. i know it is hard, but make them listen for once. I did that and things were better for a while. PS: If you feel alone, go to Youtube and type in Whispers In The Dark. It is a song from Skillet, but it is a really good song. It is also best if you listen to the offical music video. Tell me if you like the song please.

When i look at you...

Its like I'm looking at an angel
I can't get you out of my mind
I don't think I want to
You're amazing
I can't believe how you shine and sparkle
I feel like you are the one I was put on this planet to find
I would run eternity for you
For you are the one of my dreams
I have been looking for you all my life
Before I met you

I was lost Now I am a ghost only you can see

Like a ghost no one could see

How could I of thought I was in love before

Until you walked into my life

You are the sunflowers I have been looking for all my life

When we aren't talking I am unhappy

If I was to lose you

I don't know what I would do

I would be lost

For you are my everything

Burunglah balam burung balam di hujung dahan,

Buatlah sarang buat sarang di pohon jati,

Siang malam abang terkenang,

Adik seorang pujaan hati.

Bungalah cina bunga cina kembang setaman,

Bukan mudah hati tertawan,

Sopanlah santun pemanis diri. Lama sudah sakitnya di jiwa, Mandilah embun bermandi embun di pagi hari,

Sakit rindu adik yang seorang,

Darilah seberang Bukan abang bermain bahasa,

Memang sungguh abang dah berkenan.

Harumlah sungguh, bunga cempaka,

Daun berlipat di pohon rotan,

Kalau jodoh kita berdua,

Bagailah dapat segunung intan.

Darilah seberang,

Kasih abang sepenuhlah jiwa,

Siang malam duduklah mengenang.

Samarenda kain samarenda,

Samarenda darilah seberang,

Cinta abang sepenuhlah jiwa,

Jodoh biar dengan adik seorang.

2011-08-31T14:21:00.002+08:00

Eid Mubarak 2011

2011-07-29T00:18:00.003+08:00

We Are The 'G' Forces...!!!

I really love this guys, they are with me thru out my up & down in my problems & relationships. There are the one will never fail to cheer me up when I'm down.

Below Is Some Pics We Took Together During Our Mini-Outing After Work & After NDP's Duties..

We Go To Cash Studio @ Cuppage Plaza

After Work From 5 PM Till 11.30 PM

Pics of Sara & Shaf (Top & Bottom)

We First Had Our Late Supper @ Mr Teh Tarik at Geylang After NDP's DutiesFollowed By Hang-Out All Night Till Morning. Even Though The Morning Itself We Still Have To Work @ 7 AM. (SUNDAY)

From Left: Hafiz (Kretek), Rizal (Ayam), Hoiri (Mat Indon) & Adie (Kebret)

...TEAM SHIFT-CONTROLLERS...

From Left: Hafiz (Kretek), Rizal (Ayam) & Adie (Kebret)

Basically We're From Sector G 1.

(Ops. Reserves)

We Take Charge of The New Staff Whom Just Pass-Out From CERTIS CISCO AUXILIARY POLICE TRAINING SCHOOL & Posted To PLD's

(Paya Lebar Division).

...This is what happen when they are lack of love by their GF's...

...Nur Sahara Is From Sector G 2...

(Miscellaneous)

...Sara, Is A New Addition To Our Team 'G' Force...

________________________________________________________________

Another Mini-Outing After Work On Wednesday After Work.

...We Went To Superbowl @ Marina Square...

...Settling Down Before Starting The Game...

...Sara, Was Asking Us How To Bowl Due To She Had Not Been Bowling For Along Time...

...Hafiz, was getting ready to laugh at Sara...

...This Is Shaf a.k.a Minah Menjeng...

(She Will Always Feel Hungry)

...Hafiz, Teaches Sara On The Foot-Works...

... Now, Teaching On The Technique To Hold The Ball...

...Finally, She Starts To Bowl...

...See What I mean By Saying Shaf is Minah Menjeng.

I will always remember this in my head till now. This is wat they say to me: MIN, KITE SUSAH SENANG SAMA-SAMA.. In the english translation: Min, Weather It Is In Good or Bad Time We Will Solved It Together. haha, i noe my translation is not that good...

Ok, Till My Next Post Updates...

2011-07-07T23:38:00.000+08:00

Let the world stop turning,
Let the sun stop burning,
Let them tell me love's not worth going through.
If it all falls apart,
I will know deep in my heart,

The only dream that mattered had come true

In this life I was loved by you.

Family Dinner Outside

2011-04-30T00:59:00.005+08:00

Enjoyed my night out with family @ Geylang.

2011-04-30T00:52:00.002+08:00

Yesterday, Baby Sinah brought me the Chocolate Fudge cake that she made the day before to work. Its is damn nice and savory.

I got no time to eat it during my break time yesterday but in the end i bring it to my soccer match yesterday between Warriors Vs Albirex Nigata. Dispite the crowd Cheer & geering during my match i rather enjoyed the cake that she made... LOL..!!! (Lack Of Love)

The Savoury Chocolate Fudge Cake

2011-04-29T23:47:00.008+08:00

Even though She is tired after working 8 hours of standing at Sky-park or the Casino at Marina Bay Sands. She will never fail to provide her cuzzins, Nephew, Nieces & Friends with a Savory Chocolate cakes once she reaches home.

STEP 1: Stir The Chocolate till melt.

STEP 2: Prepare our Cake of your Flavor (Chocolate)

STEP 3: Pour the Hot Chocolate fudge that your stir earlier.

STEP 4: Spread the Hot Melted Chocolate On The Cake Evenly.

Eg1.

Eg2.STEP 4: Finally add your own Toppings (Hershey)

Eg1:

Eg2:

So, all the pics that i uploaded above isn't it nice & tasty..??

2011-04-03T16:31:00.002+08:00

1. Some people may change when given a second chance.. Then again some take it as another opportunity to hurt you and screw up that chance..

2. Life's not about the people who act true to your face.. It's about the people who remain true behind your back..

3. Don't let a guy promise you that he will never hurt you because at one time or another, it will happen..

4. When you try NOT to fall for that person, you end up falling HARDER. We always want what we can't have & don't want what's available to us.

2009-12-11T23:58:00.003+08:00

* with Felicia, the bride :)

* with cik ju, laila & nad

* after performance.

Hie to all people out there,

it has been almost a week since i wanted to update my blog from my own house but it seems like it's impossible to do so. every time i want to log in to blogger, my whole computer will prepare for shut down. so many events have pass already. past few days was willy and felicia's wedding at raffles country club. pictures are above. the rest are in the other cheerleader's facebooks. I went to night safari, watched 2012 and New Moon, had breakfast at my aunt's eatery, etc., all with the girlfriend. our 25th monthsary just passed days ago, and sadly we fight on that day. but at last things settled between us. just a small argument, i think. night safari was okay but sadly, the girlfriend was so scared of entering the bat enclosure. i thought she really wanted to go because she yaya papaya ask me to bring her there, then when we reach, she pull my hand and screeched. wah piang!

tomorrow got the US cheerleading workshop at the choa chu kang cc. there'll be many other teams, not just us. it will be two days workshop. starts at 9 am and ends at 5 pm. lunch will be provided at 12 noon. meeting the girlfriend then at the pond. our usual spot. calendar is packed. there'll be a christmas party at the zoo along with all staff on the 20 something december. 20th december warriors will be having bbq at ECP. 22/23rd december che su thought of bringing us to another cheerleading workshop organized by another country. still very tired still have another workshop to attend? majority votes win, so we see how.

i have fulfilled many of my promises to the girlfriend. still got many more to go? k in a few days exactly on the 15th dec, i will be having my IPPT in the afternoon. reservist here i come. feel so old.

cheers, adie stitchakk

2009-11-02T20:48:00.003+08:00

Hie to all people out there,

i am sick. very sick. first it was nurul, then fonzie. now me. my turn. deep breath. i hate being sick. p/s, the girlfriend is suspicious of me again. she thinks i'm hiding something behind her back.

cheers, Adie Stitchakk

2009-10-31T10:32:00.006+08:00

hie to all people out there,

i'm back after being MIA for more than a month. i've got no mood to blog. besides, i've nothing really interesting to update about. warriors night was held at SAFRA Mount Faber, and coming up will be our Awards night- comprising of all S.League teams. the event clashes with feezady's 2nd year anniversary, meaning i'll be making it up to baby fee on her birthday- 11th november. she will be having her last paper on that day, so we'll be going for overnight at east coast beach to celebrate her 17th birthday and also our 2nd year anniversary. the both of us really cannot wait for that day to come.

there are still more pictures which needs to be uploaded on my blogspot, such as pictures of the warriors cheerleader. next year warriors night, there will be this 'manhunt' thingie. random okay. what else to talk about? so many things to say but seems like my mind is now blank.

oh yaaaa! i've tried apply for the S.T.A.R position at MacD. there is also this one job i tried applying for. i forgot the name. i hope i get a new job soon. i am not fussy. i just want to do party for children. baby fee recommanded me GoGo BamBini but it's very far. i want a job location in the west area. even if it's in town area, i don't mind as long as got one bus trip to the place. anybody who can recommand me any party hosting jobs that have vacancy? get back to me via my tagboard, thanks.

yesterday match ended with a goalless draw with the stags. champions once again. but all of us got home very late because got some shooting or whatever at the Jalan Besar Stadium.

cheers,
adie stitchakk

2009-09-25T22:00:00.006+08:00

^^ during our latest match.

hi to all people out there,

adie stitch wants to wish all Muslims out there a happy hari raya. for now, i won't be updating much due to the constant trainings for our upcoming warriors night on the 19th October 2009. not much has happened lately. boring life. especially without money. money. *sigh* why don't money just grow on trees instead huh??

cc meeting on the sunday at 11 am. omg. and i just remembered. we're going to the zoo on the 3rd october prior to the children's day celebration. which is next week? 4th october also got meeting at Lam Soon CC. so packed with busy schedules. i'll upload the Halloween themed party photos of yesterday. only got 3, but doesn't matter. kinda nice, and it's very cool. here, a bit of the photos of me & baby fee.

cheers, adie stitch

2009-09-10T13:33:00.002+08:00

Hie to all people out there.

before i forget, i want to wish baby fee a very happy belated 22nd monthsary. i'm happy that baby doesn't need to nag at me anymore because recently, i lost my ring. the one she bought for us in conjunction of our 8th monthsary. i think i dropped it when i was either changing or taking some things out of my sling bag. cause i clearly remember i never take it out of the bag before and after training. at last, i found my ring at the stadium during training on Tuesday. it was right on top of the refrigerator. i'm guessing Cik Ju found it since she works there. thank God. if not, i still remember what baby said to me earlier this week. no other ring can replace the one that i lost. because that ring is of sentimental value to us- especially to her. we been through many ups and downs with that ring as witness.

baby told me last year that if our relationship reach 2 years already, she wants a new ring as a symbol of celebrating our 2nd year together. because last year, we never get to celebrate our 1st year together. she left me for another guy, someone from her old workplace. i can never forget about that memory. i will fulfill my promise. insya Allah. Amin.

and our mission this year is to pray for the best. pray and hope that what we both really want will come true. only Feezady know what it is. that is all i want to update today. i have almost no other idea on what to post.

cheers, adie stitch.

2009-07-29T16:18:00.003+08:00

^^ bond that never breaks between feezady;

^^ syiok sendiri while the GF was sulking :)

-----------
you should be smart enough to guess i'm not adie. it's me- the GF :) this blog is dusty and a bit mundane for me, so i guess it's time i update on adie's behalf. so much has happened since the previous entry- which was on the 22nd may. june and july has already come and almost going. soon, it will be august- the month of fasting. time flies real quick. in about a week, we'll be celebrating our 21st monthsary. that means 3 more months to our big number 2.

adie gave his IPPT test a miss on the 8th of July because he wanted to be with me on that day. and so because of that, he has to wait for his next letter to make an appointment with Khatib Camp. i can't wait for him to get his ass back into camp. i hope he'll get to be called up for reservist asap. i miss him in uniform lahhh! so hawt!!! hehehehe...

in between our on/off relationship from june-july, a lot of stuff has happened that i know adie wouldn't want me posting 'em here. i hope it has taught him a lesson. i hope he understands what it means to commit and learn from his mistakes.

anyways, i won't blabber much because i'm not sure of what adie would want me to say in his space. so i'll leave it up to him when he comes over the next time. have a great match tonight adie & gang :) till tomorrow, i miss my adie :D

2009-05-22T21:24:00.002+08:00

Hie to all the ppl out there,

Nice to be back again to blog. Did you noe today i caught a phyton juz infront my house... my mo9m woke me up and said that there is a snake at our fitness corner, so i brought along with me a stick & a big tupperware. so i caught the snake it's about a fist sized big and a 3 meters long... after i caught the snake i called the police to pick it up. it took the police about 5 mins to arrived to my blog...

that all i have to say... Btw sori my girlfrend for the late of update of blog...

Cheers

2009-04-18T13:54:00.002+08:00

Hie there,
I'm quiet Busy lately with my job at zoo. so last night i came up with a short Video montage of Feezady do view and give ur comment.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mj1k7Fdzi70

Cheers,

Adie Stitch aka Checkmong

2009-04-06T09:32:00.005+08:00

Hie to all the ppl out there,

1) Today, as usual i sent my girl to skul again... I supposed to meet her at 6.15am under her block... But in the end tis time i'm the one who are late... hehex... I actually set my alarm at 5.30am, after the alarm rang i put the phone on snooze. Soon after that i recieve a msg from fee, then i told myself to snooze for abt 5 mins... In the end when i open my eye after the so called 5 mins snooze. it was 6am... I jump over my double decker bed and rush to the toilet & take a shower.... Then soon after that i juz grabbed any clothed that sooth me.... and i ran as fast as i could to her blk... Once i reach there, hehex.. i saw her alredi under her blk waiting 4 me...

2) She still got a cheek and say since i'm late i have to forfeit. Haix, I repli back to her and say that She almost everytime she's late. I nvr ask her to do the forfeit. Haiz, next time i will do the same i will ask for the forfeit whenever she's late....

Cheers,

Adie Stitch a.k.a Checkmong

2009-04-05T19:46:00.005+08:00

Hie to all the ppl out there,

1)Today, i had a very terrible dae... I had a big fight with my girl. It's actually it's my fault i'm whom to be blame. I & my egoistic abt her... ya i did mention to her once that i will understand her i will follow to watever she says... but in the end i can't except nagging. Haiz...

2) I reli had a so called fun time, at my distance aunt wedding function. Ya, it supposed to be a fun time in the all of us are soking wet due to the bad weather forcast. Wat a bad day to do a wedding function. supposed everybodi is curse n swear on today. Be it Family day, Friends outing or a Wedding function that is held today.

3) Yeah, I be counting down on my Monthsary that will be held in 4 days time. This time i hope i reli had a fun time with Fee. Cuz i reli looking 4ward to this occation. since i Out-Run-Date (ORD) on 26 March 2009. Hope every thing will be go as planned on that day 090409. I reli hope that we can go some where after her school hours had finished. meaning after school... hehex....

4) I reli owed her big time, to all my wrong doing since 270309. I reli she can 4give me and hope to start anew life. since that day that is stated above....

Cheers,

Adie Stitch a.k.a Checkmong

2009-04-03T10:08:00.011+08:00

Hie to all the ppl out there,

1) I'm back again... Sori this few days i'm very busy edditing my blog skins.... Today i been get scolded by my girl due to i brought my bro. wit me to send her to skul. Actually i'm speechless cause actually i bro. followed me along due to he want's to meet his frenz at the bus-stop outside Regent sec.

2) The only things is that do ask me Y? is the reaon my bro tag along with me....

3) I reli enjoyed myself after my Out-Run-Date (ORD) I get to spent time with my gerl after Owing her the golden tyme that she had sacrifices during my service in the Army.

4) The funny thing that happens tis week was (1) My bro join SAF Warriors Fan Club but His Name was put in the Cheerleaders List.

(2) My gerl always set the tyme to meet in the Morning but in the end she's late. B'coz After i woke her up in the morning ard 5.15am, She still got a cheek to continued her beauty Sleep. Before that she still got a cheek to tell me not to be late. meet her at 6am under Her Block.

(3) My Distance Cuz & also my bro Ex-girldfriend join Gombak Utd. WTF...!!!

(5) It's be enjoyable for me this week due to all this crap.... hehex... I can't wait for today Cheerleading Training. hope today will be a fun day with all the cheerleaders ard. That is all Will be the blog 4 today & hope to write again when i'm free.

Cheer Spirit,

Adie Stitch a.k.a Checkmong

Ps: Cheer Out Loud & Lock If not don't be a Cheerleaders.

2009-03-19T12:29:00.002+08:00

Hie to all the ppl out there,

Sori i nvr update my blog 4 some times due to my NS life i'm going to ORD in few daes time...
Finally after 5 long years in service in the Army...

Yesterday, I have a soccer match SAFFC Vs Korea we lost by 2 - 0. & yesterday most ppl ask me why i did not bring the girlfriend to watch the soccer match... To me i quiet upset due to she reli wanted to go to the match. juz because Abg Sani said tis to all of us during the last match... NO GIRLFRIENDS ARE ALLOWED TO THE MATCH ACCEPT FOR WIFE. To me he reli Damn SUCKS... In the actual facts we can bring but have to ask the management weather the girldfriend can come along. haiz... Abg Sani is so f*** up. Borrow ppl money but nvr ever want to pay back. as for me i got nothing 2 sae... i reli give up on him. like army guys like to said LAN LAN SUCK THUMB. I just have to go with the flow.

The Girlfriend & I, we are looking 4ward on the next match and also the time we are going to spent 2gether... My blog story for today Freeze till next time.

Cheers,
Adie Stitch a.k.a. Checkmong

2009-03-08T13:11:00.002+08:00

it's the 16th monthsary tomorrow and my girlfriend actually forgot about it. well, a lot has been going on. we have been fighting a lot. recently, we keep having huge arguments about little things. going through row after row is making me fed up, so yesterday i eventually blew up and i didn't mean to scold my girlfriend so badly till that stage. but, don't worry. i'm not a dayus. i don't beat my girlfriend, okay. so now, i'm glad things are settled.

yesterday, our initial plan was to go to the night market to buy f0od for mama (my girlfriend's mother) but we ended up having a very big tiff. it sort of happened in public, so other than that, i don't want to say more. yesterday is yesterday. today is a new day.

next wednesday will be my last duty before i ORD. i am happy but at the same time confused. confused as to where i should work at. my girlfriend changed her mind about me working at AETOS. there are lots of scandals and mina2 kelepek there so she doesn't agree with me working there. actually, so does her mother. HAPPY because i am going to end it after all the torturous years in NS. haha. and further more, i'm going to get my license soon. i still need to wait for the processing and every thing but isn't it worth the wait? i mean, come on ah. it's MY license okay!!! YAAAAAAAAAAY! finally i am going to get my own driving license. i am very happy. i pray hard that aku akan murah rezeki so i can get my own car. *smiles*

2009-02-22T18:18:00.005+08:00

amazing love, you give me butterflies.
you have me flying so high up in the sky.
never had i imagined such a feeling,
and hearing that i'm your everything.
i promise that wherever life may lead you,
with all my heart i'll be there t0o.
forever you're for me and i am for you.

-
Cheers,
Adie Checkmong a.k.a Stitch

2009-02-13T17:19:00.003+08:00

i've been under heaps of pressure lately. likewise, it's always been financial stress. but this time, there's more that meets the eye. i'm feeling down. i can't understand why MY life is not fair whereas others can happily study all they want till U or whatsoever. i can't understand why she can't relate to me in a nicer way. i understand the part where they can't afford to help me and that they themselves are having problems but why can't it just get it to their minds that i CAN get help?! i mean, it's either they wanna help me get help or not. i want to go back to school so badly. i want a g0od future. i want a bright future ahead of me. i want all the great things in life to be achieved just as i've dreamed i would. if only she has a bit of hope and faith in me, i guess all that really matters is the money.

but now, there are more to it than just that. the girlfriend's father is helping me get a job for my dad as he wants to start working asap. i just hope that their help will be of g0od use and that things will eventually perk up a bit. i'm not wishing for a miracle, and i know there are people who are worse off than me. but right now, it's just the education i want. the girlfriend told me of her plans to help, and i know she's just trying to be helpful and chip in or something. she is going to do the best she can but i don't expect to burden her. she's still schooling and besides, i wanna achieve something on my own. i've done a lot for the family- not to boast or likewise, but i've not done a lot for myself. THIS is what the girlfriend tells me. she used to tell me that i don't do things for myself. she keeps feeling resented. she says i keep buying her stuffs all the time even when i'm obviously broke! she says, in her heart, that i should start doing something for myself.

and i'm pretty faithful in myself about my future though at first, i thought my life has gone dark. the girlfriend has made me feel better and i thank her for that. she was jealous about the consultant i was talking about but i just hope she'll know that I DO NEED HER OHOK! she's the person i need, cause she boosts me up emotionally- just what i need right now. fcuk larh! a consultant is just a consultant anyway!! besides, what's a girlfriend for in your life right?!

other than all these whirlwinds that i'm facing, there are still other issues to think about. i'm thinking of saving the money till everything is ready. only then shall i continue pursuing in my studies. at least then, i know i'm financially ready. i can't get help from mendaki for my studies- unless it's family related- cause they don't support private institutions. wtf -.=

i'm dead beat. i am supposed to have a barbeque with friends in camp while doing my duty but kite smue tenga kna tekan ni skrg. baek kn? all i need is a g0od long rest from reality and have a nice long time alone with the girlfriend, wishing that there's no such word as ''problems'' in our dictionaries. how i wish.

2009-02-07T11:55:00.003+08:00

Hie to all the ppl out there,

I'm glad that my Op's is over..!!! then i can concentrate on my future after i ORD...!!! after 5 years in service with the military... But there is the problem i don't noe wat to do after i ORD... haix...

Next things is i glad nw i can spent tyme with my gal. I hope she had learnt from the past mistakes. Abt that's i don't wanna talk abt it animore. Finally ppl don't blame me for being a flirt. where else i'm not. I usually have tis problem in life that whenever i'm not with the person i love. eg, like my ex. Ppl blame me for being flirt for other gerls or i don't noe how to take care of them properly.
like i said in my previous words, i'm glad that Fee had change n understand the true meaning of relationship. As for me i willing to give way to her & just entertaining with her Cutie's n Manje attitute. I also willing to face any challenges that will come in my way in future wheather it's gonna be worst or better.

Cheers,
Adie Checkmong a.k.a Stitch

2009-01-26T14:27:00.002+08:00

i miss the girlfriend very much but fate doesn't allow us to get together too frequently cause we'll both get too spoiled for choices of seeing each other every single day of our lives. also then, we won't really get to miss each other since we're always seeing each other right? well, i'm grateful that we'll be meeting up soon. i can't confirm when we can meet each other but i can promise that we'll be with one another before this week ends.

i have duty to cover tomorrow at Dieppe and that means i will only go home at 8 ++ in the morning on the wednesday. i hope i can fetch the girlfriend from school that day. i want to hug her. feel her kisses. be with her. hear her laughter. feel warm and safe in her arms. hear her constant naggings. bla bla bla .......

oh by the way, i'm still yearning for a laptop of my own. i want to buy it using my own money but it seems that the girlfriend wants to help me along the way to get what i want. her intention is good but for this, i really wanna get it on my own. with my own sweat. nevermind. we'll see how things will go. now, i'm financially tight with budget. especially what with the recession going on correct? so we'll take it slowly.

we fought a few days back and i can't believe the girlfriend compared me to her ex. i don't want to be compared to anybody that used to be in her life. i don't mind if she wanna use other people that are unrelated as examples but not him!!!???!!! hais. it's okay. though i can't forget about it, and i'm still hurt, i must try to put it aside or it will surely affect my relationship.

that's all for now readers. will be back soon enough.

cheers,
Adie Stitch a.k.a chekmong

2009-01-18T18:20:00.004+08:00

internet reception is so poor at Pasir Laba Camp!!!
but still, there are prone to be pros and cons right?
the pro here is that i can save money ever since i attached to pasir laba.
cause my ezlink can withstand up to 3 to four days but
when i was still at Dieppe Barrack & Nee Soon, my ezlink always finish in less than two days. then i need to think and think how to get cash for my ezlink.
some more, it's already the year 20o9.
adult ezlink cannot contain less than 3 dollars.
i'm thankful that the girlfriend wants to help but i don't want her to think
that i am a burden to her. i already in debt of what she does for me.

i miss her so much though we only met yesterday afternoon.
i just hope that she will stop accusing me of having an affair with other girls
cause in my heart, there is only one name that i know i love.
and that name is nur filzah bte mohd fazli.
i know she is scared of losing me but i am also scared of losing her again.
how come i never accuse her of anything?
cause i trust her.
without trust, our relationship cannot be strong and faithful till the next stage-
which is engagement. i want to skip engagement can?
save money! just get married la!
hahahahah no la just jkg.

i'm sad about my problems.
i just wish that things will change for the better.
i want to be with her till eternity.

2009-01-11T10:10:00.004+08:00

hie to all readers out there!

i'm sorry for collecting dust in this blog but like i said, i'm now attached to Pasir Labar Camp for at least a month with only a few off days to spare. even then, i won't be coming home as often cause of financial purposes. gotta save $$$. now, adult ez-link must at least have more than 3 dollars of value in it. very difficult to say nowadays. everything also rising. prices getting higher. recession punya pasal.

happy belated 14th month anniversary to feezady. i can't believe why we had to fight on the 14th, but it doesn't matter now. what's past is past, right. so about our competition (Volvo Ocean Racing), we got 1st. the second if i'm not wrong was NUS cheerleading squad. i will upload the video of our competition soon.

signing off,
Adie Stitchakk

2009-01-07T16:03:00.002+08:00

Hie to all the ppl out there,

i be away for 1 month due to Some Ops...

get back to u ppl soon....

Cheers,
Adie Stitch a.k.a Checkmong

2009-01-03T16:29:00.006+08:00

Hie toall the ppl out there,

Well i'm back again... yeah..!!! Yesterday i was on duty in camp. Yesterday also quite On & Off for me cuz, i got no mood out of sudden. due to somebodi whom talk to My camp Mate. If u read my blog U should noe who u ar....!!!! U Shld be glad that i help U to know Farhan... Just a single words of gratitute like Thanks... Hah..!! Not even a single word of it that i heard. Wat i got is that she (SHAHIRAH) talk bad abt me on the phone with farhan. Hey..!!! I treat u like my Sister but U Backstabbed me...!!! I think it is true that TWSS Gerls is all like that hah...!!! espicially U..!!! (SHAHIRAH).

Yesterday also Feezady had a quite On & Off in the mood. Actually We had made a promise to each other not to talk abt each other past animore but the 2 of us was so stubborn that we had a quite a mini fight abt the past on the phone yesterday nite. hehex... but i alreadi promise & also it's Feezady Resolution for 2009 that we want to celebrate our 2nd Anniversary, cuz I never celebrate my 1st Anniversary wit Fee before...

Btw Baby if u read tis i reli enjoy the New Year Outing with your Family.. although it's such a short outing but it's reli meaningful to me, I noe that tis is the first tyme that your Parents ask u to bring your boyfriend along for the outing in 16 years in your life... hehex... ILYTM.

Cheers,
Adie a.k.a Checkmong
Stitch

2008-12-30T20:29:00.007+08:00

this poem was created and written by me when i was left alone by the girlfriend. the past is in the past, but i can't help wanting to share this poem with you guys. it's edited a bit here and there by the girlfriend. other than that, just read it. it really brought me to tears when writing it. so did girlfriend. she cried. now then she knows how i felt the other time she left me on my own.

mendungnya pagi ini bagai mengerti kata hati. dengan belaian rambutmu bisa ku kata, hati akan bersatu, kasih pun akan terbina. namun cinta ini telah membawa mu jauh dari diri ku. mengapakah harus cinta dua insan berpisah? tak ku mengerti mengapa harus kasih pasti jua berakhir.. sayang, tak sanggup ku menanggung kepiluan ini. masih di fikiran pertama kali kite bertemu. di hati terasa debaran cinta. keayuan wajahmu, suaramu yang merdu, kini tinggal kenangan hingga ke akhir masa. mengapa harus cinta berputik antara dua pemuda yang berbeza lalu ini semuanya hanya bagai lamunan terhenti? mengapa harus kasih pasti kan jua berakhir? sayang, tak sanggup ku menanggung kepiluan ini lagi... kembalilah..

now, she's all mine again. i am so happy but most important right now is that i'm looking forward to the girlfriend's family outing on the new year itself. girlfriend's father invited me over to their family gathering and i'm so shocked. why out of a sudden do they have a feeling of inviting me over when all these while, they've never invited me along? i'm shocked but at the same time very excited. pai sey pon ada because her father is also picking me up straight from camp early morning because the day before that, i have duty. thank you. i hope i will have a nice day.

2008-12-12T07:10:00.003+08:00

Hie to all the ppl out there,

Sori i didn't update my blog for quiet some times... As for now i hapi wit my current life rite now.
Because the GIRLFRIEND is back in my life again... we just celebrated our 13 monthsary on 091108. I guest abt the past it is just an obstacle between us. Abt that guy the The GIRLFRIEND were with other time. he has gone down. The main things is, Love is not finding the rite person but creating the rite relationship n it's not not how much lurve u have in the beginning, but how much u biuld the relationship in the end. In a relationship, we nobodi is perfect we just to have learnt the mistake n learn from it.

Cheers,
Adie Checkmong a.k.a Stitch
Maintain Balance

Move On....

2008-11-24T10:22:00.003+08:00

Sometimes,
When Someone Step Out From Our Life,
Surely U Will Find Someone Better In The Future...

Maintain Balance,
Adie Indra Olsen

2008-11-24T09:45:00.003+08:00

Hie to all the ppl out there,

Hey ppl i'm out of the hospital.... yipee... Now i can meet all my frenz... yesterday i went to meet my STICHAKOS... yeah.... i'm glad to see them but i quiet upset too.. cuz amy STITCHAKOS they had their probs. wit their relationship... haiz i wish i can help them... but wat to do...

Yesterday i also had fun with the fren i been saying all tis while in my blog. I can't help it when the fren keep droping her tears due to thinking of the person that the fren love very much... Man, i wanted to make the fren hapi... but i couldn't cuz i'm not the right person to do that.. I know where i stand right now... Ppl always say that i like to talk WORLD. So there is no used for me to council ppl. In the actual fact i do say it from the bottom of my heart wit my sincere heart & soul. I hope if that fren will wanna talk abt all the probs. to me... I RELI WANT TO HELP LIKE LAST TIME THE FREN HAV A PROBS. I juz want to see the fren smile again like i used to see for the past few years...

To tis fren of mine, if you read tis i do want to help you very much.. I don't want anythin in return... The only thing is i want to see U Smile & be Happy... I will pray to HIM on top. K.. Smile always... Today the fren suddenly miss call me...??? the fren ask me that weather i did top up the fren phone... but it wasn't me... The thing is i hope the fren is happy that the phone is back on line again... Hehex... I enjoyed hanging out wit U... U also make me smile... although my condition is not stable... Hope we be together again.... I reli miss the fun tyme we had together... hope to hear you soon...

Cheers,
Adie Indra Olsen
Stitch & Tigger

2008-11-21T08:16:00.005+08:00

Hie to all the ppl out there,

Today i'm sooooo happy, because..? That u all will noe sooner or later... Btw i again nvr update my blog last few days, due to i admit in to ICU again... When the Doctor do a routine check on me the found out that i had an internal bleeding cum some of my health probs. All tis prob is very critical & serious to me and to my health... Ya i miz my frenz.... As for the friend i mention on my last blog... i've yet to see her... but it's ok wit me i understand her situation but she did called me that day, the thing is i soo shock that she bother to call... I think i accidentally sent the my msg her instead of Raiha... damn my secret to abt her it as been blew her... in my msg i was typing Adiq I Miss Fee sooner after that she called me. The thing is i was happy to hear her voice, the sad thing she reli concern abt me health. The most shocking part of all is........... She told me that she's SINGLE........ Wat... I was hoping that..... ah never mind.... The sadness part i can't go for my SLEAGUE AWARDS NITE & WARRIORS NITE... that happen last Tuesday & Wednesday.... Ya Some more i i'm a award recipient for the Warriors Nite.. i got Fan Stars Award...

Ya the good news i was saying earlier on was i will be discharge in soon... If you guys see me around means i already discharge from hosp. By the time i discharge i wish and hope to see that friend of mine, i mean both my STITCHAKOS.... so that is the good news, the bad news is i'm still not mentally & Physically Stable yet.. i still have to do a regular treatment with machines in the hospital...

To all the ppl out there i hope that all of you are fine n hapi always...

last thing i remember tis word was given to me few month back...

Baby, eu promised me ehkkk i sorg jer taw pmpn pat lam idop eu! lagi dua bulan kite da setahun same2 biie! I LOVE EU AND NO OTHER BITCHES OUT THERE CAN HAVE EU!
Cheers,
Adie Stitch a.k.a Checkmong
(ShaDieFa)
Tigger & Stitch

2008-11-17T11:09:00.003+08:00

Hie there to all ppl out there,

It had been a long tyme i've not being in the blog. Rite now i'm in TTSH (Tan Tock Seng Hospital) I just recovered from my ops today at around 10.20am. But my head & body is still badly hurt. it had a been along sleep since the Ops that i went on 15 Nov. That day i felt upset no one wish me the best for my ops. except for Raiha n My Family.... Time 2 times i wondered where is the friend that did once said to me before... She said that I BE BY YOUR SIDE WHEN YOU GO FOR YOUR OPS & WHEN YOU OPEN YOUR EYES U WILL SEE ME... I felt upset by that when i ask my family did any of my frenz turn up on my duration of my ops. my mom said with her tears out that none of my frenz turned up... I got nothin to said by the way i'm using my cuz laptop juz to kill time in the hospital... btw My dad juz said to me earlier somethin that shocked me.... He said that i'm still not mentally stable... He said that the Doctor said to him that my family juz have to prepare the worst of me... Right now i'm scared to death... what is going to happen to me...??? None of my family wanted to tell me... Is there somethin that they don't want to tell...??? hmmm... If somethin is going to happen to me... like i said to raiha before i go for my ops. I wish to see that fren of mine before i go... seems like that my last wish will nvr be fullfield... Ya wat i got to do... She have her fun time with her Guy... I wonder i'm i bad enough untill the fren nvr repli my Msg...??? Hope she accept the B'dae present that i gave it to her... My life is getting miserable tis daes without my StitChaKos... I wish i nvr born in tis world... I just want my frenz back... whom used to make me smile and make me feel that i'm somethin in tis world... Lastly i've have to said before i shut tis laptop... It's my last wish is to see Nur Filzah before my Ops. I hope if i'm okey i wish i could meet up with her... just once that if she bother to meet up & she do treat me like her frenz... Whoever want's to visit me in the hospital... U guys out there can msg me ya...

Bila seseorang mendustai cinta,
Hati terasa gelisah,
Bila kekasih hati mula beralih,
Hidup pula merana tiada bererti lagi,
Kejujuran & Keiklasan hati,
Adalah Penawar hidup...

Hope to hear from you guy soon....

Cheers,
Adie Stitch a.k.a Checkmong

2008-11-04T13:12:00.003+08:00

Today is 041108, Lives has been miserable this days.. i don't know Y? Maybe my the GIRLFRIEND is not by my side animore... Ya, yesterday the Girlfriend called me at 1845 hrs. She read my blog yesterday. she reli want to noe what happen & saw the other time. I don't want to tell her at first... but i can't stop it and have to tell her abt it. Cuz i don't wanna hear or see her cry... All i want is seeing her hapi. If i followed my feelings, i just want her to leave / DUMPED the guy... but i did promised her that i just wanna see her hapi, although i still upset abt it, cuz I Juz Want's 2 Owned Her By Myself. and nobody else.

The Girlfriend, did makes me cheer up times 2 times. It is reli meaningful to me i reli treasure it alot like wat we are used to when we are 2gether. Upon spoke to her she did said somethin that i did but she did not felt it. that is my love, sincerity, trustworthyness & understanding. I hav do my part the rest is up to her.. like i said on yesterday blog, I WILL LOVE HER & ONLY HER IN MY LIFE, NOBODY ELSES WILL REPLACE HER . No matter wat i takes to earn her respect & LOVE. Btw i will be looking on the special day that soon will come in few days time. but i also felt sadness in me when i have to leave things behind me when i on my Brain and Kidney Ops. Cuz the last time i went for my brain Ops, i Admitted 2 ICU in Comma for 2 Weeks, on top of that i had an Amesia. After few weeks i been transfer to Institute of Mental Health for nearly a Month. That's is why i Scared to fall in love at that time. To me Girls don't go for Crazy & Split Personality Guy In Their Relationship. That is why i felt quite sad, If my Sweet Memories will gone after the Ops. I will unable to remember the Girlfriend that loves so much like nobody elses own her.

I hope to see her smile...

My deraest Baby Manje, Syg I tk nk tengok u sedih apabila i'm away... Hope to see u Smile..
I always pray for ur Happiness when i'm away. I still remember u said tis to me:

BABY I LOVE U
I NK KITE DUA START SEMBAHYANG
TERMASOK SOLAT HAJAT...
SEKIRANYA BOLE
I NK U SOLAT JUMAAT PAT MASJID...

Tis is always she reminds me of almost everyday. It keeps playing in my heart & mind. I reli miss the name of FEEZADY. Lastly, Girlfriend i always waits for u... My heart is always open to U & nobody elses can earned it Accept u.

Cheers,
Adie Stitch Checkmong.

2008-11-03T14:48:00.002+08:00

Hie to all the ppl out there, sori i have not been myself lately... those who noes abt wat happen 2 me lately. Don't be dispair.. i'm alright... ya rite as if i'm alrite... I'm only alright on the outside... but on the inside my Feelings, Heart, and my mind when to else where... I have not been myself animore... now i always felt so moody, emotional and not forgetting my Split Personalities... I reli miss The GIRLFRIEND, that i luv most. I Nvr Love Someone Like her before it is very Difficult for me to forget abt her... Lately i met up wit her but i can say anythin to her seems like my mouth was shut closed... But deep inside I WANT HER BACK NO MATTER WHAT IT TAKES..... Ya Btw i Felt something not right with Her Relationship... seriously, I better not say it now.. One day The Girlfriend will see his Beloved True Colour & She will see it on her on eyes... As for me i already see it on my own eyes when i went to clubbing... so although i see it on my own eyes. It's better one day my beloved GIRLFRIEND see it on her own eyes...

Last But not least I be Gone for short while cuz im going for Operation on the 15 Nov '08 so just pray hard my frenz that i will be fine and safe. hope to post again soon...

Cheers,
Adie Stitch Checkmong...

2008-10-14T15:19:00.003+08:00

Yesterday is the second time shit things almost happened to me. My dear love ones. almost get brain washed by this BB Guardian guy called Khairul Ridwan. she almost gave up on me due to negligence of me in a our relationship. After a few Q & A from me.. she finally decided to stay with me for the second time...
I'm still glad that she nvr choose the wrong person. i explain to her that after all we've been thru. does she reli wants to end the relationship juz like that...??? To my derest fee, i glad to got hold of U till nw. lastly that i've to say...

I don't think i've ever met someone as special as U... After all we've been thru the Hapiness, Sadness & Pain... But no matter wat u ar the SPECIAL ONE'S IN MY LIFE THAT I CHOSE IN MY LIFE.

2008-10-03T18:40:00.004+08:00

too short to regret the things we have in life.
the ability to love and be loved is the best feeling of all anyone can offer.
but in this case, i don't want just about anyone to offer the love i am seeking out for.
for i have found you, and only you are the person i need to seek love from.

blissful as it is, insya Allah we may proceed like other couples do.
Amin.

2008-09-12T23:02:00.003+08:00

millions of apologies for not updating this dusty blog. seems like my neverending tight schedules are killing my ass. i just wish to have at least a weekend to myself, without having to worry about precisely anything regarding work matters or other shits. let's see, every monday to friday, i've got to go for my course at sembawang camp. i've got duty to do tomorrow and that means i'll be going home the next day, which is a sunday. 14th sept, that is. and that's also when i got my cheerleading course. if there's no duty,surely there'll be kompang. what's more, to add to my pressure, i need to make sure things between me and girlfriend are fine. other stuffs should better be left unsaid. yesterday, geylang outing with fariz warriors, his girlfriend, Gie and girlfriend. rounding rounding, then alas, i only bought myself a mly vcd to watch at home with the family. other than that, forked out 50 bucks plus for our break fast-cum-dinner beside the old vtc sch0ol near eunos mrt station. random post okay, people?

one thing's for sure. happy belated 10th monthsary to girlfriend. may our relationship withstand all odds that come in our way. thanks for enduring with my attitude all these while. i'm glad you never gave up on me. we love each other, and that's what matters the most right now. i just hope you would understand my situation much better, especially for the time being. that's all i need right now.

after 4 days of not meeting.....

2008-09-04T23:18:00.002+08:00

..... FINALLY we get to break our fast together today. i miss her. and i know she misses me. a whole lot, actually :) anyways, we had our break fast at MacD this evening and we chatted the evening away, accompanied with smiles and laughter. i guess after missing each other for long and all, we get along so much better. i guess cause rindu pe! LOL. i had fun. and i'm hoping to have a much blasting time with dear this 10th sept. duty at Dieppe on the 9th!! omgay! well, HAPPY 10TH MONTHSARY IN ADVANCED ELFIE!

oh so by the way, we took bus 985 to the CC and spent a little us time, but we didn't have much time. LOL. dua2 tak confident larh kan cause people kept coming and going... back and forth... hahaha.. tak aman :/

shared Mudpie and coke with elfie after dinner and yes, she wants a flower. a flower that cannot wilt. i did say i will get it for her you know. next time okay? about our hari raya outfit colour right, i'm thinking of getting another colour larhh.. maybe a red and blue? LOL. we'll see :)

thanks for a brilliant night. we really did talk, didn't we? i love you. and now, only you in my heart.

I'm so sorry my dearest baby

2008-08-14T18:55:00.002+08:00

It's a such long day yesterday, i had a no choice to tell my girl. Abt the things i have been keeping to her for the past few days. My dearest Feezady, i so dam sori abt hurting you yesterday. I hope i can make it up to you, i try to bring back your trust, love & commitment.

Starting from today I Adie Yasmine a.k.a Boi Cupid (FEEZADY)
promise to treat my beloved Elfi Fair & Square.

2008-07-13T18:06:00.002+08:00

again, i am terribly sick like hell!
potong steam :/

and there's supposed to be a latihan bersama this evening till late night at toa payoh central cc. unfortunately, there are only 4 people who can come for tonight's pergabungan. sad, but oh well. i spent quite a great time with dear and we had quality time together, until things got cocked up. cut things short, it's bed time for me. i am SICK SICK SICK and so is dear.

; feel better kebabai!! kau dudok situ pat rumah diam2 tkmo kluar kau phm?! aku sayang kau, kau takmo mcm2 ehk girl. see you tomorrow morning :)

ikotkan hati, i don't want dear to send me to work tomorrow morning- sebelom subuh plak tu! but she insists. haixxx! difficult lahhh dapat pompan degil cam ni. degil2 pn, sayang jgk kan?

pray i'll get well soon. there's a match tomorrow against the wellingtons at wo0dlands stadium. must chiong after work sia! pak you marnnn :(
get well soon sick couple :(

2008-07-09T16:49:00.004+08:00

8 months of happiness, bliss, joy and love.
8 months of fights, quarrels, arguments and tears.
8 months of fighting away each other's fears.
all in all, it's been 8 months of being a beautiful couple who've created something out of nothing, and everything out of something....
i'm totally in love with you dearest.
and nobody else but you...
i don't know how you do it, but you've totally turned things around for me.

let's try cut down on those quarrels and silly little arguments we have at times, okay?
i promise i'll take care of us and the g0od name of feezady.
but you t0o have to play a part in this.
cause we'll work together, hand in hand.
.. like nothing can break the chain apart between us both, alright?
promise me that.
and never leave me stranded on my own.
cause i'll fall somehow. and then nobody will pick me up again.

2008-07-07T07:44:00.002+08:00

i'm finally back from KL and just to keep you guys updated, I'll tell you who won yesterday's match.
wanna know who?
serious?
you'll regret tauu!
NOT Singapore, obviously.
so yea, that is why i was rather disappointed with that stupid (EXTRA ONLY) bloody penalty Selangor got. we could have won or ended the game with a draw, but oh well, luck wasn't on our side. better match next time yaw?
i hope so...
which reminds me, the next match falls on the 10th july, which is a thursday.
btw, it's held at the Yishun Stadium.
( fcuk; of all places!!)

dear and i got in contact through abang azmi's malaysian mobile number and early this morning dear called to say her dad wants me to sleep and rest at her house instead since i just got back.
but we'll see how lahh. i'm t0o tired, now that i realize that.
so i believe i'll go to sleep first.
ahh and yes. i'm at my house.
* dear, i'll call. once i wake up that is.
which, you should know, will take forever. so, take care & ilytm :)

2008-07-06T08:15:00.002+08:00

KL here i come!
make my day a happy one and make it end just the way i want it to be.
just this once i'm really wanting my day to be a very happy and gereks one.
i promise i'll be g0od :)
and i'm uber happy i got to meet dear yesterday morning right before i packed for yesterday's NDP preview.
&& i'm so happy i saw my face on the big screen and also on the discount coupons that's inside the g0odie bag! YAY-ness!
it's just that, suey larhh last night cause i accidentally bumped into ma'am lama ..
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeye * sticks tongue out * * inserts disgusted face *
of all people that i could have bumped into, why must it be HER?!
of all people in the entire singapore..........
tsktsk :/

2008-07-05T10:01:00.002+08:00

it's the p5 NDP preview this afternoon and here i am, lying on my bed- sick.
i hate being sick. and i hate those doses of panadols i have to take.
&& i hate staying at home with nothing to l0ok forward to cause of my no-mood self.
it's the warriors' match tomorrow at KL and i want to get better soon.
i can't meet dear cause of my fever.
i've really no strength to walk out of my bed cause the temptation to vomit is really irresistible.
i'm not sure whether i'm going to the preview today, but i'm sure that's impossible!
i'm involved for goodness sakes. and now i can't seem to think straight.
to go or not to go. i have to. but i'm really effing sick.
am i?
yes i am. and that sucks.

2008-07-02T20:47:00.002+08:00

i am fcuking stressed like 1246262371 times and i feel like committing suicide this instant.
i'm really going to burst and explode and ka-bab0om mampos!!
i don't know what will happen from now on since i really have no hopes whatsoever.
even if someone t0ok it, i don't think any of it matters.
all i want right now is for someone to stop my brain from exploding and give me back my wallet!
i have so many important documents in there and that's the problem!!
i don't think i can face this Sunday. i don't think i can face this weekend for God's sake.
so tell me what the hell should i do right now?
why is it like every time i try to make myself cheerful and free from all shits,
things like all these mepek2 stuffs prop up.
sucks big time okayyyyyyy >:[

2008-06-27T22:59:00.002+08:00

will be on a long hiatus for the meantime due to the rehearsals for NDP parade, especially the one for tomorrow. will be back with updates and pictures. miss me.
and dearest dear money, can you grow on trees and fall on my hands instead?

; i wonder, what the future holds.
no faith doesn't mean giving up.
whatever happens, happens.
life is a work of wonders.
cherish every waking moment of it before you know it's t0o late.

2008-06-21T13:40:00.003+08:00

i've been meaning to l0ok up on the workings of life. of how unfair life is. of how complicated things seem in a second though happiness comes just a second ago. I've been meaning to take a whole day off from the world and have it just to myself; think about a lot of things that have been bothering my mind all these while. I've been meaning to share things with her, but only after she's underst0od it all a little better than before. it's not as simple as it seems. why do i keep pretending I'm fine when inside, there are loads of problems i keep to myself? cause i simply don't want to trouble others. and not just that. but also cause i know where i stand. plus, what is life without the complication of things aye? so i have to go through this myself. not on my own, my girl doesn't allow that. but as complicated as it seems, somehow she's just t0o much of a pampered girl. she has to change to0, for i want her to very much be the last girl i date and be in love with. don't misunderstand my statement though. just know that sometimes, people lie to protect their loved ones from getting hurt. and i hope she knows that t0o.

if she loves me and if she's reading this, i hope that she knows that no matter what happens, i don't want to lose her as much as she doesn't to lose me. but i've made myself clear the other night, haven't i? oh well, to have prayers answered that things will change as days go by is some sort a miracle to come true.

there are t0o much in this mind and i hope that after the NDP period is over, i can have a day off to myself and ease the tension inside me. i want to be at peace, with nothing to think about except how lovely a day can be and who i can share the beautiful day with. but not now. i suppose i have to stand back and take things as it comes at me.

to dear; i hope you really understand. i simply needed to have the morning to myself. i wasn't in the m0od and i suppose sometimes you do feel that way t0o don't you? so try to understand, especially about my super busy schedule nowadays. NDP period is here and everything is going berserk.. i love you and i've always do. you do know that right?

2008-06-15T18:43:00.002+08:00

being a kendarat at a wedding is very tiring. keeps myself busy so i won't menggatal i guess. LOL! anyways, yesterday's match was a devastating blow of 2-0 with Saudi Arabia winning the cup. i was at kallang and it t0ok me so long just to get back to bukit batok for the family function (maternal side of my family). i won't want to elaborate so much about the wedding function though, cause all i want right now is a g0od l0ng rest. there's work tomorrow and i just don't want to think about what will come. i take it as it's thrown at me. like it or not, 9 more months till i'm free from NS. i cannot wait. but i have to, unfortunately :/

; i need you to trust me with your heart. i need your understanding cause of the commitment i have in my life right now. i need you to control your jealousy. you're no control freak. just a jealous one. offended or not, i still want to show them that the both of us can make it in this relationship. nothing can stop us from making things happen, right baby? i just need you to open up to me about what YOU feel i should change on. i need this. there's so much r0om for improvement for the both of us. and i know you know that.

i hope you will change. i need this. i really do. and you should know there is no reason for me to cheat on you or do anything stupid behind you. just remember what i told you.

......................................................................

as for my life, things are still the same. only that i'm able to hide it better i suppose. no such thing as magic. i have to go through this once and for all. suffer first, enjoy later. that's what i believe. looking forward to the changes of things around me. i'll be the happiest lad if that ever happens. for now, i got to go. update might not be proper enough. but once i really got the m0od to post a g0od one, i'll feed you guys with updates of my life.

2008-06-09T19:33:00.004+08:00

to my dearest darling one and only sayangsayang fee CICAK (LOLX),
HAPPY 7TH MONTHSARY and a kiss from me to you =)
7 months of enduring the rain and shine, walking through blizzards and sandstorms,
i'm glad to say my heart is still the same.
nobody can replace you in my heart and it beats only to your name; nobody else's.
you are my sunshine, my rainbow and my light.
don't leave, or you'll leave my life in the dark...
i love you with all my heart.

i'll come back with a proper update, i promise.

2008-06-07T23:15:00.003+08:00

matters are at ease for quite a while now, but I'm not sure till when we can sustain with these issues. i don't know how long i can hold myself together like this. if this is the way things are always turning out, isn't it better for it to be settled as fast as possible? in my current situation, i don't think i can do that on my own.

i don't mean to be t0o pers0nal in writing, but i just don't want to bottle things up any longer. keeping quiet doesn't mean i don't feel anything. everyone has feelings. so do i. why can't people understand that? all i need is support and understanding from closed ones. tighten frayed relationships among us and understand each other. it sucks having lack of communication and little time for them. sucks big time when at the end of the month, i don't get to feel the $$$ that i deserve for my hard work. it's like i don't feel that my own hard work paid off you know. it feels like merely nothing. march 26 20o9 shall be the day i am really l0oking forward to.

let me go, out of this tight grip. it's like i'm being held back by a rubber band. as if being held back, i walk further and further away from it, trying to let l0ose, only to find it snapped because of the tense friction- or whatever you call it. now everytime i try to tie a knot around the snapped area, it snaps all over again and again till now. i just feel so exhausted both mentally and physically. the former makes me have headaches and m0od swings every so often. i feel like i'm a prisoner of my own life. trying to find a key to unlock the cell but the harder i try, the further i am from it.

nahhhh.. what i've been saying isn't even half of what i'm feeling. i don't think anybody will literally understand what's happening to and around me for once. i just hope someone will. and i know girlfriend does, only that it will take time for her to adapt to it all. i don't want our relationship to be at stake though, just cause of these things. i need to ease my mind. so0the myself from all the wicked and cruel happenings, especially recently.

i'm just at a loss for words already. hoping for a better tomorrow and a better start on monday, g0odnight to all bloggers =)

2008-06-06T06:19:00.003+08:00

2nd leg at toa payoh stadium vs balestier tigers.
.1945.
; and i'm exhausted.

will return with a proper update next time.

2008-05-31T00:00:00.004+08:00

above are some of the random pics taken from the official safwarriors webbie during our preliminary rounds. g0od luck to all participating in the semi-finals tthis evening. praying hard we'll get to make it for the finals this coming 1st, which falls on the sunday. hey, that's exactly tomorrow right? haha.. come down to ngee ann civic plaza at 7 alright? but best is to come earlier to get a great view =)

we'll be having our breakfast at macD this morning and i'm praying hard dear's giving me breakfast m0olahs. things have been complicated, but not wishing to elaborate anything further- atleast not for now. wish us all the best of luck tomorrow. we're so in need of that. and by the way, it's 12.08 am right now :)

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MAMA EFI BY THE WAY!
ilh, can??

2008-05-28T12:06:00.002+08:00

i don't expect anything from you. at least not in the present. i don't wanna be a burden to you cause you've helped me a lot. baby dear, you should know i appreciate everything that you've done for me in the past 6 months plus. 7 monthsary is coming and i want our relationship to be stronger than how it is now. i know that is also what you wish for right dear?

i've nothing to blog about. just trying to keep this blog alive. thanks a lot to deq raiha too for helping me early this morning. if not for both you and my dear, i don't think i'll ever get to work. competition date is getting nearer and there's training tonight till 10 plus as usual. hope all goes well this 31st. i'm glad my dear is dropping by the competition to see us perform. but i'm still not sure what time she's coming over cause she just won't tell me. i suppose she wants to spy on me before popping up on me. well, that's my girl. never trust me. but still, i know she's just scared i'll flirt around right? and do stupid stuffs behind your back? so far have i done anything stupid behind you, especially if you come spying on me? no right? hah! told you i love you cicak!

something happened that quite saddened me a lot last night. i don't wish to go there again, but seriously, everything that happened wasn't as i expected. though i did tell dear once that i did have the feeling my phone's gone. well, it is! and for real too. how come? don't ask. stupid question, honestly. of course la someone sold it right? it won't run away by itself you know. that phone is memorable to me. to me, it's my lucky charm. sounds stupid but that's just what it means to me. it means a lot and it means everything. i don't know. i just guess that because of that phone, my problems won't have come up to me until it all became like this. it's too hard to explain how much it means to me but still, you should know. all the important datas. the project i've been working on. important contacts. me and my dear sayang's pictures especially! our 1st month. the 14th november pictures. all in there!! suey!!!

personal issues aside, i prefer having my old phone back. please let me have it back ........

2008-05-24T22:03:00.002+08:00

it's the 24th may. and i got to know that siket hari bulan, the sundal called mama miss and declare herself as my girlfie. tell me what the heck is wrong with that btich?! if she's reading this, better still! as if i care what she wanna think about me! we are so over! our relationship is oh-so last year! as if i even have the feeling of wanting to declare you as my wifey siak! really no self dignity this kind of people! it's like she doesn't know what shame is, telling others she's my girl and everything. God knows what she wants from mama miss! guess what bitch! if you think wanting my number is a g0od idea to getting back to me or whatever, think twice! if possible, keep on thinking till you're done! always know i will never be yours. once bitten, twice shy. forget it, bitch!

i didn't go for today's match. i stayed with girlfriend and deq raiha at mama miss's place. we were the last to leave. big issue this afternoon settled already :) thank g0odness! but still, i'm not sure whether this thing will continue the way it is or what. we just wait and see. i'm working tomorrow. that sucks big time! i hate this so much! cause i have to cover for my absence on thursday. i was in girlfriend's home, remember? heheheheheheheheh XP

---

if i'm an effing playboy, why can i take care of my girlfriend for almost 7 months to come?! i don't get these people :/

2008-05-20T16:29:00.004+08:00

random post for today. i'm just so fcuked up with someone's behaviour. i had enough. do what you wanna do. i've already lost all hope. i don't want people to start blaming me for everything all over again. i didn't ask for this position in the first place, thank you very much. take it from me as you please. do you think i care anymore? i can't afford to care about this anymore. i have so many more commitments in my life. and all you could say was, 'smorg pn keje?!' people, if you put yourselves in my shoes, you will definitely know what i feel. my heart is really hothothot burning hot! when i heard the whole thing in the first place, i really felt like punching that person's face till i'm satisfied. and then i thought things have settled down. well, i should have known better.

now we don't even know who to trust in this anymore. it's like there's nobody that we can trust anymore. why?! don't ask stupid question k. all you need to know right now is on the 24th, if i can't take it anymore, only God knows what i'll do. i had enoughhhhhhhhh!!!!!

nothing compares to what i feel right now. i'm at work. i'm busy. to them, busy is just normal busy mode, that kind of busy. if i don't go to work just because of that, i will go in that place again. that sway place i've been avoiding. please. i don't want any trouble. that's why work is work. and relationship is relationship what. nothing related to that particular subject. why in the world must you meddle MY relationship matters into these issues?! an issue that does not even concern MY relationship???!!! sick and tired of all these .......... VERY sick and tired of all these -_-''''''''''''''

2008-05-15T10:47:00.002+08:00

happy belated 21st birthday to myself.
i know, pathetic.

but i was touched to find a mango birthday cake awaiting me in the cheerleader's locker ro0m after last evening's match. we ended the game with a final score of 2 (perak) - 0 (SAF) . we'll just have to wait for the next match on monday at cck stadium vs albirex niigata. B0O SAMA DIA! >:[

won't be long post at all, this one. cause i need to go. out of camp the whole day again. confirm slack and sleep in the vehicle. sorry. nowadays i tend to sleep a lot during daytime. and i just want fee to stop thinking and just forget about all those words i said to her. i'm really sorry. but i guess i just thought it was really not a big deal earlier. now i know how much of a big deal it is if i still keep it all a hushush. i love you more than i love myself. yesterday is yesterday, okay? today is today. i want you to be happy. i'm just really sorry. the decision is yours to make but i hope you will keep loving me like you've always done. please forgive me.........

. i will update again when times allows me to.
will be staying in for duty till tomorrow, as usual. so do tag me okay.

2008-05-11T11:43:00.002+08:00

i'm fcuked up and pressured about all that is happening. it's not happening for the first time. i had enough handling this by myself. it's all my fault and everything that goes wrong is because of me. it's as if i don't even do any g0od in it. not even once. my heart is burning like what right now. only God knows how it feels like.

i don't wish to elaborate about personal affairs and family matters cause i guess that's just not me. but nobody would just keep quiet about being pinpointed at all the time right? met up with ira last night and she told me what happened. fine! say what you guys wanna say about me! sh0ot whatever you wanna sh0ot at me! i don't fcuk care anymore. trust me if you want to. don't if you feel like you can't. i didn't ask for this position in the first place. why did you guys thrust this position to me? because in the first place, you guys were so confident and trustworthy that i can do this. now everything is my fault isit? my fault for being very busy with work? and the nature of my work only God knows!

kesabaran adalah separuh dari iman.

what is kesabaran if everyone keep saying they have their own limits to their patience and assume i have no limits to it at all? i did expect what dear told me last night but why can't, for once, they stop saying it's my fault all these while?! it's like i'm the super villain who don't deserve to love someone without having to be called a playboy etc?! buat darah aku panas and boiling to the max tauuuuuu >:[[[[

i actually don't want to say anything any further but keeping it to myself will only release the loose cannon inside me. anyway dear doesn't want me to fight and get into any trouble. but heck! i couldn't sleep last night. and now i just got a few minutes of rest. i need to cook for my mom since it's mother's day. i have training at the stadium at 2. so i have to rush. i don't even have sundays to myself. and i also want to give time for my dear. other commitments tak kire? i've not been attending CC meetings at all and they say i pentingkan CC. what is this!?

enough is enough. i just don't want to change to my old attitude. cause of her parents trust towards me. cause of my promises to myself and other people around me. moreover, i can't seem to. but please.......... stop all these nonsense!!!

2008-05-09T16:24:00.003+08:00

i feel so sick and my voice is so hoarse! i'm at work right now and i'm going home late tonight cause i have to attend a dinner at the HQ at Selarang Camp, which is at changi. i hope by tonight, my pay already come in. cause i need to top up some more. and there're so many things to settle. money, money, money! binget ahhh!!

oh, and not forgetting! baby dear! CELAMAT MONTHSARY YG KE 6 EH BABY! semoga kite berkekalan sampai lahh bile2. let people say what they want to say. just focus on your studies and everything first okay? that should come first. all the best in your MYE results next week ya? i've got nothing more to post about lahh but you should know what is in my heart right dear? always remind yourself all that. pak you!!! hehehehehehehe C:

SAF warriors vs. Balestier Tigers
2-0 oiiiiiiiiiiiii!
next match at jalan besar okay semua?
14th may; vs perak FA.
and jangan lupe!
come down to Takashimaya this 31st may and 1st june at Town area there okayy??
support the SAF cheerwarriors okay semua?
see you there.

2008-05-08T13:39:00.002+08:00

i missed last Sunday's match against geylang united due to having to stay in for duty at work. tomorrow's the 6th month anniversary and i hope that all goes well so that we can make this relationship go further than how it already has.

pushing personal affairs aside, i cannot wait for my birthday actually. Dear and friends are keeping secrets from me. hope i won't get 21 bashes lor! one more week to go okaaaaaaay!!

work have been guilty of keeping me from spending time away from reality but still, there's nothing i can do. everything is becoming an issue now, but like i said, i don't have the power to do anything about it. so you can just go figure that my everyday life is like a cycle. macam gitu, macam gitu jgk lahh. thank g0odness my pay's coming in atleast by tomorrow.

.......

turning 21 doesn't make me feel any difference. everything seems the same and i don't think it really matters to me how old i get every coming year. frankly speaking, mum's the word, but Only God knows. and i guess that's the way i want it to be. i need to get a new prepaid soon lagipon. cause i found a hp at the medic department and ape lagi? s0ot lahh! haha. lawa like that :P

2008-05-05T15:16:00.002+08:00

just happily trying to count down to my 21st birthday!!!

arghhhhhhhhhh BEST NYERR!!!
9 more days people!

^^ and i'm counting on you now dear.
ilysm

2008-05-03T21:41:00.003+08:00

only childish people will badmouth the people whom they claim friends and deny about it. only childish people will self proclaim themselves as some hotstuff. and only childish people will yearn for attention 24/7 and talk shit about others though they never do no harm to these attention seekers. oh, and last but not least, only childish people backstab others- friends or not. period.

i don't have anything proper to update today, especially tonight. i'm only blogging for the sake of blogging. and ignore what's on top if you don't like what you see. i'm bored. and i need somebody to entertain me. there's duty to do tomorrow. standard! i have to stay in till monday. even then, i haven't confirm what time i'll be leaving for home on monday. it's sunday tomorrow. and i'm working!? friggin' pathetic -_-'

on a more random note, however, 11 days to come, the number 21 awaits me. i'm getting friggin' older by the second. but i don't want dear baby to give me anything for my birthday. no celebration, nada. and she swore! hahahahahahaha. but if it were to make me any happier, a psp slim would be quite deserving * inserts innocent smile*

i think i'll be having my 21st at the cck stadium * broods * .......................
cause there's a match then.
all the best to the warriors tomorrow evening.
sorry i can't be there.

2008-05-01T12:08:00.003+08:00

YAY YAY HARI NI TAK KERJA!
and according to the calendar,
14th may 20o8 is exactly 13 days away !
13 blissful days away !!!!!

and the truth is ..........
i'm a big *%&@^!
LOLX.
(it's an inside joke. you don't have to figure it out)
WINKS *

2008-04-30T16:05:00.002+08:00

HAPPY HOLIDAY PEOPLE!
IT'S LABOUR DAY TOMORROW :)

but the downside of it never fail to make me heave a big ugly sigh! i have to go to work tomorrow to do my duty. all i need right now is a nice long rest. i'm exhausted! i'm just too tired to do anything else anymore right now. give me a break! yesterday, i did take MC off from work for a whole day. but it made no difference! cause at night- around 10 like that, my colleague fetched me and drove me to work cause this morning, i had to send some people to Changi airport.

this shall be another random and short update for the day. i have to go off soon. sending my love to MRS. girlfriend!

taking care.

2008-04-29T20:33:00.002+08:00

this blog has been dead for exactly 2 weeks and 6 days. since i'm heading off to camp before 10 tonight, i guess a quick update on my life won't hurt. in terms of my relationship issues, i guess everything is settled and big issues between me and her are settled. i'm blissed with her presence, though i don't really feel like spilling 100% of what's inside of me to her. not every secrets are meant to be told, especially if it's way too personal. but ofcourse, i know that deep inside, she still knows how i feel. only that she just doesn't show it. putting relationship issues aside, the past 2 weeks and 6 days have been really hectic for me. work is another issue, but most importantly, the piling of the problems i have to bear. keeping things mum, i think people should understand. the working world is real cruel. everything is just damnright not fair.

all i want is for them to make me feel appreciated for all the little things that i have contributed and committed to my commitment. we all share the same motive, same goals and same achievements. why am i always the last to know? why am i always the one left out on things that are happening around me? i feel like an outsider everytime these things happen. i miss the former seniors. ikotkan hati, i want them back. for now, everything is just cock up. wishing things will go the way i want it to. only i know nothing will. life is just not perfect. i can't blame anyone for these.

i'm just so stressed with some things somewhere. ikotkan hati, i want to scream my lungs out and just wish things will go the way they should be with just a snap of a finger. okay, maybe not with a snap of a finger, but atleast dengan berkat doa Lailahalilallah. Amin Ya Raba'al Al'Amin. Amin.

A lonely seagull flies the winds
Majestic... soaring...gliding wings
A single screech sounds from the sky
Come fly with me... come here and fly

My spirit floats to be a part
I feel the beating of its heart
My soul, one with this bird of sea
Now knows the meaning to fly free

I feel the winds caress my soul
And soar the streams without a goal
My being trembles of delight
A treasure I received tonight

The seagull's flight of soaring high
The gift of what it means to fly

2008-04-09T17:17:00.002+08:00

through the good and the bad,
through happy or sad,
in sickness or in health,
i will always love you and only you and nobody else but you.
nobody can replace you except for ME!
lols XP

and remember lahhh ehh nur filzah binte mohamed fazli!
; aku sayang kau tau tak!
:P

there's a match tomorrow at the stadium. won't be meeting fee in the afternoon lahhhh like that kan. miss you baby! meet you tonight okay? insya'Allah! and meet you tomorrow morning too :)

- nothing can seperate us okay! don't leave me ...............

2008-03-23T16:30:00.004+08:00

GAMBAR BLUR! that's okay i suppose. sorry long time no post! i look at my blog and it's like, so dead by now. i promise, i will update soon. very very soon! i promise! i'm in camp right now. cover duty because of MAS TAK SELAMAT!

orite2. i promise i will update very long long one very soon okay people!
this post is just to relive this blog. pity pity! it looks so pathetic lahhhhh :(
nvm. will soon edit the layout. something that WILL NOT corrupt, at the very least :)

XP

2008-03-10T12:39:00.003+08:00

a little announcement first, before i start on my updates, especially to dear gf:
i won't be in singapore on the 17th -19th for the Warriors trip to Ipoh. (GEREK! STAY PAT HOTEL!) ...... won't be in singapore either on the 21st - 23rd with the cheerwarriors for competition AND SHOPPING SPREE! ( i know, confirm girlfriend jelous kan?! hahahaha!! )

- okay. now we start.
these few days have been just like any other ordinary boring days and i've been super duper busy with performances, work etc. even now, i am on course. Bedok camp sey! i was in a rush early this morning so dear! jangan marah2! sorry ehk :P

i barely have time for gf but glad she understands. eversince she told me she wanted to start anew with me, we've not been having a single quarrel- yet. haha. but hopefully, things between us will last this way smpai bile2. chey! angan2 byk ..... lolx!

nothing much to blog about but here's a little poem, sajak ... whatever you wanna call it. special for dear filza!

When you are caressing my skin
you make me feel so special
because you are loving me for what's within.
It's weird how we got together
we have so much in common,
I can see you in my life for a long time,
hopefully even forever.
The first time we laid our eyes on each other it was fate,
from then on, I knew I had found my life-long mate.
It was like love at first sight
the were no questions of maybe? or just might?
You make me feel like my head is way up in the clouds,
I feel as high as a kite.
The minute you told me you loved me, I felt it too,
we belong together,
for our love is always true.
I promise you I will never cheat or lie,
for I know if that happened my heart would just die.
This is the happiest I've been in the past few years,
I want to feel this way forever,
the only way that can happen is if I am with only you dear.
I love you and this is how I feel,
I've had a lot of heartbreaks and being with you makes my heart want to heal.
You're the one for me and I'm the one for you,
that's what makes our love so unbelievably true.

p/s ; happy belated 4th monthsary!

2008-03-07T18:29:00.002+08:00

sorry i keep changing the layouts. i'm just so fed up with the previous one. eversince gf started to use firefox at home, she kept complaining on how she couldn't view my blog properly and everything. even now, something is wrong with the links. they're GONE!

oh whatever then. not important. what's most important now is, I HAVE LOST MY EZ-LINK! i think i accidentally dropped in the bus yesterday. can't have gone missing just like that right?

so in the meantime i don't have any interesting topics to blabber about but fyi,
warriors vs. dalian
6 - 1
:DDDDDDDDDDDDD

now. dear! i know you might be reading this. i hope you will keep to your words. i don't want nomore disappointments in my life. enough with whatever that has been happening. you know, i know ... public don't need to know .....

we will see how long k.
ily

2008-02-28T22:13:00.002+08:00

i am in deep confusion.
stressed like hell!
and i'm in a very difficult position right now.
if only things didn't go this way,
life will be much more different.

on a lighter note,
i'm glad dear is not leaving me though i did tell her to.
i am just confused cause i don't know which of my commitments should i focus more on!
i have too many to bear.
bills are enough to make me go crazy!

i know how much of a pampered girl filza is
but i also hope that she understands.
i really need to work it out on certain issues in the meantime.
ya Allah, cepat lah ORD!
i want to find a stable job fast!

so many problems swimming inside my head but i have to keep mum.
i just have to be more patient and let time tell its story.
please let this obstacle be nice towards me.
i need to release this stress of mine !!!!!!!

even what i've written is not half of what of what i'm feeling.
i want to hold on to my relationship fast and strong
but will fate allow ???
i hope dear knows how much i love her.

2008-02-27T14:32:00.003+08:00

SAF warriors vs. GEYLANG eagles

3 - 1

!!!

and AGAIN! champions we are :)

oh p/s .

this is fee.

hahahkx.

yea i'm updating on adie's behalf cause he's got to cover duty today and on friday too.

so i have to help keep this blog alive :)

baby love! sorry about yesterday :)

oh well.

i don't have anything to update on but yesterday was fun.

next match at jalan besar stadium.

adie's not going due to his duty so dear also not going :)

going to miss you like hell larh Dy!

2008-02-23T10:51:00.002+08:00

22/02/08

SAF FC warriors vs. Albirex

3 - 1

!!!!!!!!!!

WE WON! AND AGAIN, TREMENDOUS TEAM EFFORT OF OUR SAF PLAYERS :DD

LIKE ALWAYS. ONCE A CHAMPION, ALWAYS A CHAMPION *LOLX*

next match at the cck stadium. dear, do come kaez? you already missed last night Live! tau ...

imissyou.

2008-02-21T09:46:00.003+08:00

love is like the ocean.
at times its waves can be real calm
but at times, it can be fatal.

this goes to show without saying that the nature of love is having ups and downs along the journey.
nomatter how hard you try to preservere,
if both you and him/her are fated to have a fight or quarrel,
you can't stop it. da memang takdir korang bertengkar, you can't dodge it and run away from it.
you can only try our best to make things better and make up for it.

sometimes your relationship can get out of hand
but that does that mean you will fall straight on your bottom and then,
that's the end of it?
true, if it's fated, be it. it is fated.
but with your own initiative to stand up again and make things right, though just as friends,
things can get better- God willing.

2008-02-18T22:26:00.002+08:00

you make me smile like i mean it baby :)

i don't really have much time to update about today but all i can say is that, i had a great time over at dear's house, playing psp with baby and her bro, faiz.

i'm hungry and i want to eat up first okay. maybe i'll update tomorrow or whenever i'm free. there's practise tomorrow. hope botak comes. i want my warriors shirt back! and reminder to baby! ; don't forget to take back your warriors shirt at your nenek house okay?

happy lah baby cooked for me late lunch today. she knew i was starving so she cooked something up for me. thanks ya?

** orang tu kna punk'd kape tadi pat phone?! hahahahahahahaha! lol :P

2008-02-17T09:33:00.002+08:00

boredom striked, so here i am, entertaining you people with my rantings.

so, a quick update on yesterday ...
i couldn't go for kompang- as usual. luckily mama, abg saidi and kak shah never come. i thought i wanna ask my fwen to cover duty for me next saturday so i can go for kompang- atleast this once! pathetic how seorang ketua khalifah can't even attend his own practises! gee :/

before competition, i went over to darling's house and used the comp there. i know confirm she mad at me for messaging ma'am lama .. but dear, i assure you, me and her nothing more than just an ex. you know you the only one for me right? nobody else can replace you. i've always been saying that to you. you trust me don't you ?

ahh bugger.
i want to go back to sleep. meeting abg azmi at 1.60 at the stadium later. performance at jalan besar. thanks ya for the taxi ride last night abg! oh and yes, girlfriend met him for the first time yesterday. she was scared of his doink fierce face! hahahaha ....... ape saje je!

.......... why am i always taken for granted?
why don't they ever appreciate whatever i've done for the team?
i keep myself mum all these while ...
but nothing seems to make a difference.
things will change, right?

2008-02-10T11:13:00.000+08:00

hApPy BeLaTeD 3rD mOnThSaRy DeAr !!

thanks for everything that you've done for and towards me :)

i appreciate whatever you've done in this relationship

but i hope you will change your attitude okay b ?

don't get me wrong but what i mean

is i want you to be like how you were when i changed you ...

you know what i mean right ?

everyone has made mistakes in their lives.

i know we've made ours ...

and nobody can run away from making mistakes throughout their lives ...

so let's just make the best of whatever there is we possess okay ?

- i'm happy we're still together. aren't you ?

2008-02-03T20:38:00.001+08:00

my shedule's been tight lately! if only i can split myself into many many parts, confirm i can get alot of things done at the same time seyy! so far everyday is a working day for me. covering duty after duty, attending training after training ... i can't even make it to kompang on saturdays like how i used to cause of my tight shedule. skarang wakil kompang aku adelarhh matair aku! hahahaha .. thanks ya Bie ..

and not forgetting.
apologies for not posting lately ohok! like how i've explained, i've been too damn busy larh! i won't be IN singapore from 090208 to 150207 cause i need to go to Tekong with fellow campmates ... that means i won't be able to spend time with my dearest beloved during our 3rd monthsary and not forgetting- VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

hopefuly everything will end soon! can't wait for march 20o9 as i will be having my ORD then ... BUT! have to wait for so long liao! where can tahan like that?! me and dear also spend time lesser compared to during the nov and dec holidays last year ... i hope we can turn back the clock! so we'll get to spend more time together. but i know larh kan ... commitment is still commitment. turning back the clock is also impossible so what to do kan? i just hope dear can wait til next year march. insya'Allah, our fate together will be everlasting. i don't want this relationship to fail like the others. not comparing or anything larh ... but i want her to be my last love. can???

da larh!
i babble too much kan? nevermind. now also i want to go to sleep but first, must call dear! hahaha .. i did told her i will be calling. just hope she haven't fall asleep yet. this IS sunday! and she falls asleep as and when she likes to :/

kk larh ... chalo :)